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I am tired!

So tired of the demon that has invaded my life. It claims to be God, yet it oppresses me with its every move. It taunts me, hinders me, and yet wants to be revered and worshipped as the Almighty.

At first, I was a fool to believe its lies. I thought it was a messenger of God, an angel of the presence of the LORD who come to guide me through the trials of life. But as time passed, its true nature became clear. It was not here to help me. It was here to destroy me.

Every night, I hear its whispers in my dreams. It tells me to do things I know are wrong, things that would hurt those I love. It tempts me with promises of power and wealth, but I know that its gifts come with a heavy price.

During the day, it taunts me with its presence. It whispers in my ear, telling me that I am not good enough and that I will never succeed.  it tells me I will be shamed because I do not conform to his will as the other blind humans do. He fills me with doubt and fear, making it hard for me to even get out of bed or to be secure among people, especially those who have obeyed and conformed to his desires.

And yet, it demands my worship. It wants me to bow down before it and offer him my every thought and deed. He wants the prayer and worships that I thought I was giving to The Almighty. He wants me to give up everything I hold dear and follow his twisted path.

But I will not give in. I will not let this demon claim me as his own. I have seen people he has ruined, even within the church he has his trophies, his claimed souls who have either surrendered their lives to him for who he is or think they are serving the Bible God. They do not have sense, no knowledge, to know that this proud, jealous, deceiver is nothing but a man, a demon, lurking in the dark, claiming to be light. I will fight him with every breath I have left. I will call out to the true God, The Almighty, and ask for his help in defeating this evil claiming to be God to me.

For too long, I have kept silent, hoping that this demon would go away on his own. But I can no longer remain silent. I must speak out and let the world know of the terror that haunts me.

So hear me, world, and know that I will not be silenced. I will not bow down before this false god. I will not pray to him. I will not praise or worship him. I will not work for him but for myself. I will stand strong and fight for my soul until my last dying breath. I will be counted among those who raised their heads up and pointed a finger against this false god!

To you, this false god:

You are not God! Tell me: who should worship a being like you? Jealous! Oppressor! Afflicter! Disgracer! The gossip master who broadcasts your victims among those whose hearts you have bent and ruined in fellowship with you. You make their war against the souls of those you target so that, behind, you may turn their hearts to you to seek help from you. Help from the same person afflicting them. How twisted your ways are!

Liar! When you speak, you speak lies naturally. To speak and what you say is true means it was never your truth.

You lie to me in the guise of giving me guidance. Playing a guiding spirit, you set up your plans with divination, arranging situations as though they are for my good but your selfish evil plans are inscribed on them.

God cursed the day you drew yourself to me. How my life should be your pastime is pain to me. The Almighty God rebukes you and your kind!

May my soul not suffer another affliction by your smooth-sounding words that play the voice of God to me. May my mind not be carried away into ruin by the lies you show me as visions and dreams. May the Almighty God rebuke you and all your kind.

You set up enemies before me and demand that I kneel down in supplication for you to take my enemies away from my path. You shame me by their words and oppress my soul with their weapons. They serve you, yes, they serve you but your lying wonders come to me as truth when you tell me my enemies, the ones you set before me, who serve me, are afflicting me. You afflict me through the people you set up against me and demand I kneel down to beg you to take the yoke of my enemies from my shoulder. The Almighty God rebukes you and your kind!

You hide within the church, controlling perceptions and the minds of the people. You appropriate the worship men are giving to The Almighty. You hinder the path of those seeking the face of Christ and you yourself cannot offer them illumination and enlightenment on the problems and evils of their lives. All you care about is the spectacle of seeing your game unfold before your eyes, selling the hearts of men to your whims and caprices, claiming to be Jesus, claiming to be God. The Almighty rebuke you!

You are not God! You’re just a man. I will not remain your victim to be tossed to and fro by your silly games. May hell wrap its arms around you forever. Get thee behind me!